hey

hullo

so it's the school holidays now!

haha if it wasn't obvious I went on a looooong hiatus.

but I'm back! hehehe

so.. updates?

school is over, yaaaay!

I joined cheer, yaaaaaay!

I fell while doing a unsuccessful extension, yaaaaaaaay!

I hurt my arm and my back, yaaaaaaaaaaaay!

I couldn't do stunting for about 3 practices, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

Tomorrow I'll be doing stunting again, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!

I'm a potato! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

So yeah. Basically, this year's holiday is reaaaaaaaally busay.

Because, I have cheer practice, every Monday and Thursday from 9 am to 11:30 am.

And have gym every Tuesday from 3 pm to 5 pm.

But I like it.

It's a little bit nerve-wrecking, to do stunting again tomorrow.

After my fall, I did try to do some more stunting but my legs were super shaky. 

I think I'll have to do cradle again tomorrow.

I'm getting better at handstands, and cartwheels, though my cartwheels are very weird and unsuccessful, but still, BETTER! :) 

Wish me luck guys!

Stunting again, tommorrowww!

Bubbyez

Oh expect an emo post after this haha

today we stayed back heh

today my group and i stayed back to finish up our group work /which we didn't finish btw lol/  and we had fun~

we talked about our first impressions of everyone and we talked about orientation day and the first few days of school, it was really fun, we joked around and I think this has been one of the very few days i had been sincerely happeyh ahaha. 

I'm feeling better too because I'm motivated to plan a reunion for my old class, hopefully this reunion actually happens haha! I really hope lots of people turn up hehe.

I'm been scheduling my holiday because I wanna finish up my homework as fast as I can, I'll be starting on Friday/Saturday. I wanna finish up fast because I actually need a HOLIDAY. haha. Like,

I'll be going back to Perlis on the first week of the holiday.

Who knows what events will be happening on the second week.

If I do my homework on the second week, I would only be left with, what? two days of a real holiday? haha! Plus, I have tons of group work to finish, which takes more days, to meet up and all. homygosh.

So yeah! Wish me luck! I'm hoping to finish all my individual homework when I'm in Perlis heheh :D

okayokay, meowpminecraft, out!~

hi haha

I'm doing better now, I've been actively keeping in touch with my best friend so I feel better.

I found someone who thinks she's just as lonely as I am, we hang out, I guess haha. She's fun to be around with, but I feel so dorky and nerdy and geekish and bookwormish. In other words, not cool haha. But overall, I guess I'm doing good now.

But schoolwork ugh.

Mmm I still really wanna meet up with them though, I miss them a lot. I never thought I'd say this, but even the guys <--- I hope they don't see this though ahah. We should definitely have a reunion, just something simple like a movie, arcade and bowling heh. And I really hope that one day they appear at one of SA's events /sigh/ #6kreatif2012

I wanna join Exclamation! >.<

But the problem is; I can't dance haha, at least, I don't think I can. I never have the time to try. 

Plus, it's be hard for them to find clothes for me and I'm too short :/ And they're so cool!

But I seriously wanna join huhu.

I got resin and I've done some of my first few pieces already! But they're still curing hahah, I can't wait for it to cure >.< 

meowp. I am less emo now hoho

OKAY RANDOM QUESTION OF THE MONTH!

CAN SOMEONE BUY ME MINECRAFT/HUNGER GAMES MINECRAFT HAHAHAHA PLEASE.

Okayokay,

meowpminecraft, out.

I guess

I'm adjusting. For real, this time. I guess 

I'm settling in now. Adjusting to the new system, the new life. 

I feel better at school now. I really do. Though sometimes I can't help but feel lonely :/

I still miss them, honestly. I'm secretly (well not so secret anymore lol) still hoping that they're planning a surprise party for me. I can't help but hope. But I can't get my hopes too high or else it'll sink down to the bottom of the ocean if they aren't planning anything. Honestly though, my hopes are so high right now. That's gonna make me a mess if they never planned anything for me. 

 

I rummaged through my old stuff last night. Like, late night. And I'm not even kidding when saying late night haha.

I took out this envelope with so many last year memories. It had been quite a while since the last time I opened it, before last night. I've always hid it in my room. No one knew where I kept it. It had photos and cards from last year, my most favourite year <3 

I just stared at those things that night. Thinking about all that's happened in that year. 

I kept the envelope back where it was. I don't know, but I have a feeling, the next time I open it, it'd be when I have met them.

Happy.

I'm in a good mood. A real, good mood. My first, in a really long time. 

All thanks to my friends, S and P :) Thank you so much, beauties. ^^ hehe

The reason I love you is all that we've been through.

You're so beautiful.

But that's not why I love you,

and I'm not sure you know,

that the reason I love you is you.

Being you.

Just you.

Yeah the reason I love you,

is all that we've been through <3

That's why I love you.

/6Kreatif2012/

I wish.

I really miss them. I miss them so much.

I wish I could turn back time. 

I'm still living in the past. I can't let go. I tried, but I'm still holding on tight. Everyone else, has moved on. Very easily, in fact. Because, they still have each other. Me, on the other hand. I have no one. 

I so desperately want to have a reunion with them. I so desperately want them to come visit me here, in my new school. 

But it never happens. Reunions? During the holidays, almost no one's free. Visits to my school's events? Never. Always the same thing; no transport. Though they could ride the LRT to Taman Paramount and cut across Taman Aman. But they wouldn't do that. They'd be too busy anyways.

The only thing that would make me feel better is to meet them. To know that they still remember me, hoping that they miss me as much as I miss them.

I wish <3

My birthday's coming up. And nothing would be a better birthday gift than a surprise dinner party planned by them, for me. In my house, maybe <3 Most of them never been to my house before. They'd have to get my parents permission though haha. All of them there. Not just the girls, but the guys too. It would be the best birthday ever, a wish come true, in fact. It doesn't have to be a fancy dinner. Even simple food would be enough. With family and friends. No birthday would be better :3

But unfortunately, that would never happen :/ They're all always so busy, they never have the time. They don't have time to kill, unlike me. 

I really do miss them. /sigh/